probably nothing—

like a dream. 

did it happen, or not? 

is it more real in your memory?

more real than a book you read?

or a movie you watched? 

i guess it happened, 

but when? 

in what order?  

do you think you were 

controlling the events?   

were you choosing 

your thoughts , emotions, 

and reactions? 

or did it all just happen

the way things happen 

they way things fall 

like dominoes 

the way the river flows 

or the wind blows through.